When I went to the gynecologist a couple weeks ago I asked her to test me for everything. Note: I did not say STD. STD is not a happy word. Only happy words are welcome in my Happy Place.
Hmm The doctor said as she flipped through my chart. Weve never tested you for AIDS. Want me to... Read More
I’m fully aware that when it comes down to it, neither I nor my daughter will care what I’m wearing, what color my toes are or that I’ve done my hair but it’s making me feel better about things so I’ll take it. Besides, it’s allowing me to get excited about meeting her.... Read More
Today, its my birthday. No really, Im thirty-one today. I know as a woman Im supposed to lie about my age and say twenty-nine, but Im lazy.
Its hard not to reflect on our past when presented with our birthdays. Another year ticks by and you take stock of the past. Some years you ask yourself, what would the younger me think? Would she be impressed, shocked? One... Read More
I have been dealing with a lot of internal fear since this all started. When I was first diagnosed, I feared the unkown. The unknown is like a cancer in itself. It eats away at you in such a negative way that all your thoughts are consumed with only the worst that can happen. Of course as each question is answered it slowly gets better and you have a... Read More
Last night a bunch of the people at my office went to an industry lecture. During the reception I was shooting the shit with a couple coworkers. I wasnt completely paying attention, so when Shitfuck Coworker asked me an industry question, I gave him an answer the likes of seven when the... Read More
Coming from a family where weve been refugees forever, Ive grown up with this sentence in my head: no problem is really a problem. Ever since weve been kids, being upset about a problem or despairing or being depressed has just been a no-no. We were raised with an attitude that no... Read More